A month? Really?

It's not that I haven't had anything to say to the two of you.  I've had plenty.  But you both keep me so busy, and exhausted, and by the time the day ends, I'm out of steam!

Rowan, you have been such a handful lately.  I'm afraid I haven't been the best mommy to you, but I am trying.  We're both struggling in this as we try to figure each other out, but know that I am trying.  I love you so much and as frustrated and beat down as we can both get, I'm trying to figure out the solution.  I'm not giving up.

Logan, you are growing up so fast!  You turned 6 months old yesterday, and I cried a little bit.  You started sitting up last week- you can't pull yourself there yet but if I set you that way, you hold steady.  You are grabbing toys, and putting things in your mouth!  You have started solids- your favorites so far are banana and prunes, which is no surprise!  Last night when you woke for the first time, it was kind of early so I tried to just rock you and soothe you back to sleep without feeding.  You would have none of it!  You reached up in the dark, took my face in both hands, and pulled my chin into your mouth as if to say, "MOM!  I'm HUNGRY!"  I laughed and then snuggled you in to nurse- I love nothing better than being your nourishment right now.

I'll try really hard to write more often.  I hope to write daily so I don't forget about your lives in these precious stages, or any stage.  You are perfect, kiddos!

L,
My little Wolvie.  You have stolen my heart like I never thought possible.  Your smile absolutely slays me, and those dimples... well, I wish I could frame them.  You are entirely too advanced for your daddy and I's liking.  You have been rolling over both ways since 2 1/2 months old, I swear you're going to crawl any day now, and all I want is for you to stay my baby forever.  I feel like I missed out on Rowan's babyhood because of depression... with you, I didn't miss out on it, it just came and went so fast!  You gained weight and grew longer so quickly that we didn't have a newborn for very long.  Now, though, your laughter makes up for all of it.  You adore your big sister like no one else, and you love your daddy, but I think I beat them all.  Whether that's because your food comes from me or what, I don't know, but you light up when I come into your field of view.  I kind of dig that, because your sister is a total Daddy's girl.  I can't wait to see what you grow into!

R,
My sweet girl.  You are so amazing. You are bright, talented, funny, and inquisitive.  However, you can also be completely infuriating.  You are just like me, which makes it very difficult.  You are hard-headed, so asking you to do anything that isn't your idea is a chore.  You are inquisitive, so your mind never stops working.  This means my day is filled with tons of questions from you.  Sometimes I send you to quiet time just so I have some peace and quiet- I seriously need a break from all the thinking and the whirling of the words around me!  You and I had a rough start in your life, but I have fought tooth and nail to do and be better for you.  I'm a work in progress, of course, but I am so in love with you, my little ladybug.  I hope you always know that.

To my sweet babies,
I wanted a way to provide you with memories of your childhood as I see them, so here it is.  Mommy and Daddy will hopefully be updating this regularly- with funny things you said, skills you learn, milestones you reach, and more.  Oh, there will be pictures.  This will be used in the future, potentially as blackmail, but very much so to embarrass you in front of your romantic interests, I'm sure.  Because we are those parents.  We love you oh so very much.  Always know that.